8/11/2014
This will be a grammatical nightmare, and I won't even finish it before I post or if I even post it, but I'll worry about that later. I had been trying to track down Missy- the most amazing makeup artist I've ever seen- for my upcoming wedding...since almost literally the day that I got engaged. She was not on Facebook. My old cosmetic coworkers hadn't heard from her and/or were looking for her too. She freelanced for MAC, but was never there when I stopped by. I left my number for her with the girl at the MAC counter. Nothing. I tried to contact her on her website I found online...though it looked like she may not have used it anymore. Months I tried in vain to get in touch with her. Finally my old counter manager at Clinique got her number for me. I spoke with her tonight. Just in time, too, as she was already booked up for a few dates in Oct 2015. But none of that was about to matter as much.
As I opened facebook to message a friend who had also been looking for Missy..I saw it. Robin Williams dead. Another hoax? I never blindly believe the crap I see on facebook so I searched online for credible sources. And it was true. It was true!
A flood of high school memories came back to me. I have never really been like most other girls. Ever. Especially in high school. There was never one instance of me ever wanting, even a little tiny bit, to be a cheerleader, or prom queen, or the most popular, or wanting to listen to those shitty boy bands. While most girls were in love with Leonardo DiCaprio in the late 90s, I was obsessed with Robin Williams. I read his biographies, I bought as many vhs tapes of his movies as I could, I was gifted an old stand up vhs; "An Evening With Robin Williams" that I cherished, I taped things off tv, I scrapbooked articles, I learned most lines from his movies by heart...I wore a Mork pin that said Nanu Nanu with his face on it for crying out loud. I was obsessed. He was so talented in so many ways. He was able to convey so many different spectrums of emotion through so many diverse characters...he was simply gifted. Gradually, over the uerars I became less obsessed, but still held such high regard for this amazing, talented, compassionate man. Robin Williams was still one of my favorite actors.
So tonight's news really hit me hard. It stunned me. It's so sad that our most gifted and talented artists are also usually the most tortured souls.
